*Gods grace and being Methodical, Ive learned how they need to work together.
Methodical Me, that’s the name of this blog. Only as of late I have not been living that. So as you might have noticed, I haven’t posted in quite some time. I’ve been a little, or should I say a lot “life overwhelmed.” There naturally always seems to be something that has to be done and I just can’t keep up. I didn’t know enough about Gods grace, and how it played a role in my daily life.
It’s not even that I’m trying to get ahead on things. There are a lot of things that were never done all the way right that still needed to be set straight. And of course some of them have been corrected, but there are plenty more. That in addition to regular life stuff. Trying to keep the kids needs handled, trying to fix all of the random things that go awry such as loose bed screws, bicycle chains, weird yard problems, unfinished projects, school prep, budget woes, needing brakes, fixing dinner, tutoring sessions. Seriously the list goes on.
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It got to the point where I just felt that I could not pause to get on my computer to write. I had so much lingering stuff to do! I even began to fail at working out. It takes a lot to manage everything on my own. I get it done bit by bit, but I never get it all done. Now, I know that a household will have things that require attention. I just sometimes wish that I wasn’t still catching up on the old projects on my own.
I realize that to whomever is reading this it might seem that I am rambling off a bunch of confusing jargon, but I know what I am trying to say. I’m just not conveying it very well, and I need to write it out for my own sanity.
All of this is to say, that I realized that I was not being very methodical. I was being kind of all over the place and feeling completely out of sorts and scattered. I was feeling that I had a thousand balls in the air that I could not get to. Those balls were making me feel anxious and like there were just not enough hours in the day. I was feeling stressed and angry that it’s all on my shoulders.
Grace For The Day
Gods grace is sufficient. Have you heard that phrase before? I have over and over and over again. Since God took my husband, I’ve had that phrase quoted to me time and time again, and often with no context. Even though scripture is scripture, sometimes it seems that people use scripture as platitudes simply to just talk, to say something. It’s odd to say that it takes the meaning out of things because can you really take the meaning out of scripture? I guess you can’t. But when said as a platitude it can be easily dismissed as just another pointless remark.
It was only as of a recent vacation bible school session that this phrase was tossed out again that I really began to delve into it. What does God’s grace is sufficient actually mean? In layman’s terms it means that He provides all we need. That His strength and love is enough to carry us so that we do not have to rely on ourselves. I do not doubt the phrase but I have to say that phrase did nothing for what I was feeling and the daily burdens that I was bearing. Basically, it served as an FYI but the knowledge of it didn’t change anything.
Holding Onto a Life in Pieces
I had a whole plan when my life broke in two. I was going to be strategic and methodical to not lose a hold of my babies, my home, and my life in general. The feeling of controlling everything, budgeting perfectly, writing everything on all of the calendars and in my planners, made me feel that I wouldn’t be broken again. Structure to a fault.
I started that way, but alas I lost control at some point. In that I realized that being methodical is precisely what I need! But not only that, I also needed ‘grace for today’. What I didn’t know when I was on my mission to be methodical was that if I didn’t have grace for today, I’d still begin to lose my mind. it didn’t matter how organized I was, I would still try to strategically get it all done all of the time. I would run myself into the ground and then as I lay down to sleep, it would all run through my head. It’s like I couldn’t allow myself a break and needed to manage it all. Figure it all out.
Do Not Be Anxious for Anything
Grace for today. What I learned recently was how to allow grace for the day to do it’s thing. All of those balls in the air that I mentioned earlier, I grabbed them and laid them on the floor. In the morning while having quiet time and prayer, I asked the Lord, what do you have for me today? What should I focus on? Afterwards, I’d just take the next step that felt natural, or with a peaceful mindset things would just come to me.
At that point, I’d focus solely on what entered my head. Anytime other things came into my head I scurried them out immediately. I only focused on what seemed to be for lack of better words, highlighted. I knew that God gave me just enough grace for today, for THIS day. He knows that I cannot do all of the things that plague me, all in a day. He never intended for me to be overwhelmed and anxious. I was doing a lot of that to myself because I didn’t realize what I was doing wrong.
Make Your Request Known
I was trying to build Rome…all on a Tuesday. And of course we all know that Rome wasn’t built in a day! God gives us what we need for a day, the day that we are in. And when I say what we need, I mean food, shelter and water. I mean strength to sustain. It makes perfect sense.
We get exhausted and physically and mentally overwhelmed because we’re thinking about every single thing, almost in awe that we are solely responsible! We’re thinking about all that is and all that will inevitably be on our plates; sometimes even far into the future, like potentially kids college and weddings. What’s funny about that, is for all of the things that are plaguing us, we may never actually get to them because TOMORROW IS NOT PROMISED. I know that phrase more now than I ever have in life.
So how do I handle things now? I just let them go. Not all the time, but more than I ever did before. I stop after I get through what was put on my heart for that day. Oddly enough, or as to be expected, I find myself no longer stressed as much, and essentially at peace. I acknowledge and thank him for his guidance, and celebrate the small wins of the day.
So my lesson here is that yes, I need to continue to be methodical in managing my life, home and children. I just need to consult with the Lord first and trust that he will guide me accordingly with the grace that he has for me, FOR THAT DAY.
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